She Used To

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    She Used To

    She used to talk
    until she turned away
    settled down
    with the wrong sort
    who in return
    snarls bitter retorts
    What about love?
    convinced this is it
    sadly mistaken
    just plain faking
    Watching the cracks
    in the smudged plaster
    widening in silent laughter
    foundations crumble
    accusations never mend
    feeling too much
    as a heaviness descends
    Now he's wearing a crucifix
    on a silver tarnished chain
    barely sleeping at night
    as another day begins
    purposely isolated
    as if that will punish him more
    never really knowing
    what the future might hold in store
    hard to believe,
    this is family?
    Biting back words
    with a taste of the absurd
    putting on another brave face
    while an indifferent world
    feels absolutely nothing
    no love,not a trace...

    mathiasthom
    written 9/26/10

     

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    BrokenHeart2009 commented on She Used To

    10-06-2010

    The loneliness in this poem is depressing, and it tells a story of rejection. Very well done:) I never liked happy endinging 10 from me:)
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    mathiasthom

    10/06/2010

    thanks, I'm not really known to write happy poetry. The happiest poetry usually hides the most skeletons in the closet, so to speak...

    Poetry is what is lost in translation.

    Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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