Not Finished

Why should you be any different
than any other person
with some self righteous agenda
that you seek to shove
down the confines of any ones throat?

Double standards, smoke and mirrors
cry me a river that life is not fair
I'll give you a second of my precious time
probably more than I should care
too in denial to honestly unwind
family is drowning in fraud
clinging to some half submerged truth,
slowly being dragged under

Bled for you, inconvenienced too,
what have you done for me lately?
you scream that you do not like me,
I'm happy that you don't understand,
coming into my own,
such an uncomplicated man

You have stolen my cash,
refused to pay it back
want me out of a house
because you partner is threatened
maybe that's because I see through the lies
and maybe just because
I'm happy to see you cry

You want the world to be your personal satellite
but I refuse to revolve,
around an individual like you,
spreading half truths and lies,
now eyebrows are raised,
it's easy to be despised
desperate measures, begetting such hollow praise

A friend is someone
who tells it like it is,
not a mimicking parrot,
clinging to every half truth,you have said
reciting lines completely cliched,
not making any sense to this,
honesty is waylaid

Parent out of the loop,
appalled by this behavior
sure, and I'm a supposed alcoholic,
even though my sister has a menagerie
of assorted wine bottles,
lined up in rows beneath the kitchen window
and I can't remember when I haven't seen
her not consume anything non-alcoholic
in quite some time now...

But I'm the one with all the problems
guess who contributed to this hell?
never again to put family first,
I have more self respect than that...

mathiasthom
written 6/1/09