If I Should

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    If I Should

    Emotional depravity
    this silence cuts right through me
    If I should cry
    you will never see
    drowning in a sea of misery

    Purposeful stress
    Life's perpetual mess
    If I should confess
    buckle under duress
    maybe that's best

    All I have are 2 strong arms
    that strive to clasp
    If I should stumble and falter
    shed this life with a gasp
    good intentions never fully grasped

    Wasn't a football throwing son
    or man enough to tote a gun
    If I were a carbon copy
    and we had similar hobbies
    then I just wouldn't be myself...

    mathiasthom
    written 12/16/10

     
     

     

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    HarverTomsson commented on If I Should

    12-17-2010

    Play it, thom, poets never get enough press. But I gottaa be me, because anyone else wouldn't fit. I can always count on good structure and gravid content from you. Harv
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    mathiasthom

    12/17/2010

    thanks for commenting, Harv. Always look forward to your 2 cents worth. :o)

    Poetry is finer and more philosophical than history; for poetry expresses the universal, and history only the particular.

    Aristotle (384 BC-322 BC) Greek philosopher.

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