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    At 42

    Tried to connect to another soul
    maybe I don't know how
    to let down this guard
    repulsing pain through eyes this hard

    Finding it rather tiresome
    putting it all out there
    pulling back all battered and stung
    wondering how you could possibly care?

    Here I am,
    a man at 42
    feeling so black and blue
    setting out with nothing to prove

    Attending marriages, so white and faked
    waiting for the ceremonies to end
    so they will cut the cake
    counting down the minutes until the heart break

    At a family viewing
    being watched out of the corner of my eyes
    accusations silently take wing and fly
    ignoring the sarcastic rhetoric spewing

    Amazed as feelings are unveiled at last
    brother in denial
    sisters just waiting for a rebuttal
    and I was never even asked

    Put myself in the background
    so you could move on ahead
    don't talk about personal sacrifice
    this blood has been replaced by lead


    mathiasthom
    written 10/25/09

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