Save Me

When did it
Slip away
It’s been so blurry
I can’t remember
There has to be
More,
More than this
Searching for something
To give me a
Reason
To exist, eaten
Alive I’ll come to
Find there wasn’t
Anything to be found
All my time spent
Searching for
What I cannot find
What can you
Take from
Me, now that I’ve
Been stripped of
Everything
When did it turn
Sour, when did the
Blood spatter,
Siphoned right out
Of my veins?
If I could go back
In time…
Or see beyond
My mistakes
I’m drifting off
Again into despair
Pieces of time
Picked up and falling
Back onto my mind
Pulling me back
Fading in and out
It’s all that I
Can take
Hushed whispers echo
In my empty mind
I’m calling out your
Name, you never
Answer,
Somebody needs
To save me from what
I’ve become
What I’ve done
Metal will dance
Above my body
Prone to this white
Bed
Why am I not dead?
Cry out your name
My fist clenched onto
The bedside bar
My vision blurry
The hushed whispers
Now silent
Save me from what
I’ve become, help me
I’m fading back
Blurring the lines again
My vision no longer’
Clear my head weighed
Down by my empty
Promises, I promised
I’d never leave you,
Yet here I am,
Caught in the act
Of betraying my word
How can I still find
It in me to call out
To you?
Save me…
I’m still here,
Your face flashing
Through my empty
Mind playing
On my closed
Eyelids, a frown
Permanently etched
Into the surface,
I’m sorry won’t
Work, I will
Leave you one day,
But it’s not today.
~Kaitlin Platti~