Always-Never

His body,
Wrapped in guilt
Shimering in red,
No time left
To speak of
Time left unspent
In company
Held your hand
Through all the
Years
Tell myself over
Time and time
Again, that
You won't return
Even though you
Are right beside
Me,
Never faltering,
As I stumble
Around, oblivious,
In the hankering
Darkness,
Never judging,
As those around
Me dig into
My every insecurity
Never appearing,
For then I could
Feel some solitude
Never reprimanding,
Letting my mistakes
Run free,
For even though
Eventually, I'll come
To regret some,
I'll learn them
Always Strong-hearted
As I grappled with
My own intentions,
Always Confident,
I always seemed
To bring myself down,
Pick myself apart
In every manner,
Always comforting
I may not see
You physically now,
I know you're there,
Making me
Strong-hearted,
Confident,
Comfortable,
Stable,
Happy,
Wise....
I'd never have
Enough lives to
Thank you,
In death,
You still remain
To shadow over
My life.
~Kaitlin Platti~