To love you or to hate you

There was I time we shared
a time when we were friends
a time when I imagined, that our friendship would never end

but then the war started
oh what did I do wrong
that left a weight on my heart
until all my love for you was gone.

I hate you now I cried out
just leave, go away
don't come back ever
I don't want to see your face

then as I tried, my feelings to deny
a small piece of me slowly started to die
I cannot even cry now, unless there tears of rage
I've been turned a monster, that I try so hard to cage

but I cannot no longer, the beast it does live on
and now I have not the strength to hold it anymore

I hate you becaue you hate me
you see what I've become
and I cannot blame you after all that has been done

but truelly my dear friend if ever it were true
I am sorry for the horror that I have put you through

evil is my nature, my name is a Black rose
and though I try to hide it, the darkness still shows

will you not forgive me, I meant to tell you my friend
that I still love you now and until the end.
shall I see you ever as once the friendship we shared
or shall I forever this bitter pain bare?