survival of the fittest :: tenderpoison :: Original Poetry

survival of the fittest

within a stolen moment
this silenced wordsmith breathes
a heartbeat to remember
all that she now grieves

survival of the fittest
let the feeling take the fall
grasping for that daily bread
has made my spirit crawl

I'm tired of surviving
of somehow scraping by
this desperation holds me down
when my heart longs to fly

I try to count my blessings
at the end of every day
but half price toilet paper
should not inspire "hooray"

what the hell am I doing here
trying to shoulder the blame
and pick up shattered pieces
that only bring me shame

this is not the life I want
or the one I've tried to live
but I lied with an I love you
that I never had to give

my heart a cold and silent tomb
my mind so self-deceived
hard and dark and lonely
my guilt goes unrelieved

self-loathing leads to martyrdom
my secret sacrifice
everything I could have been
twisted to device

and though I long to break away
from the chains of all I've known
I'm shackled by obligation
destined to walk alone

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Marsink commented on survival of the fittest 09-27-2010: This self-incrimination has a real flow! Your syllabic meter is dead- on, paired with the rhyme scheme. Then, of course, your language dresses the message beautifully! Applause building!!; Reply to Comment

ginga commented on survival of the fittest 09-25-2010: tenderpoison, Your message shows the strength of patience. It seems a trap has been set and the subject yearns desperately to escape. A labored poem that speaks minions. ginga; Reply to Comment

DiStefano commented on survival of the fittest 09-03-2010: Hi .. I haven't visited your page (or any, for that matter) in a while, but I really enjoyed this. Easy to read and understand ... nice flow ... and, I could soooooo identify with it. Awesome. Thank You.; Reply to Comment

DeepEclipse commented on survival of the fittest 07-19-2010: Ah those last two lines. Reminds me of an old quote - (Only enemies get to be honest because friends are too attatched to duty). Its like the longer the lie exists, the further back the path towards truth becomes. Maybe even lost. Fitting title. Seems everything has its price. Even honesty. Enjoyed the read.; Reply to Comment

cheronld commented on survival of the fittest 07-11-2010: Wow...doing the right thing but for whom...."whats good to you may not be good for you...and whats good for you may not be good to you"....Choices are made daily for the sake of children or a situation...but at some point you have to question is it right for you....great poem...Cher; Reply to Comment

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