afternoon delight

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    welcome to my inner self...

    afternoon delight
    sitting here in my pajama's at 2 in the afternoon
    contemplating my many imperfections
    wondering, wondering what to do
    with my life
    questions that have no answer
    nothing is black and white
    it's all multiple choice, this test I'm failing
    where are the daisies now
    those wise oracles of youth
    loving and loving not
    it was simpler then
    to leave fate up to natural order
    how many petals were there?
    I don't know anymore
    loving, not loving
    I don't love at all
    whom should I love?
    and also, there is this
    can I?
    do we reach a point where the damage
    is irrevokable, permanent
    is anything permanent?
    or is my heart totaled
    like a car spun out of control
    on an icy mountain road
    that plowed through the safety barrier
    and plummeted
    burning
    down the steep canyon
    to sink in the icy river below?
    submerged
    my wheels turn, the ones in my head
    two questions then
    with no answers
    yet
    I wonder what could be
    or if there's still hope
    for what I don't know
    love I suppose
    love
    love, love, love
    why do we need it so very badly?
    do you think like this?
    why, when we have it...
    or think we have it
    do we let it go, or just murder it
    like a whore's inconvenience
    no, no, no
    it's true you know
    the having of the thing we seek
    gets in the way of the search
    and we love the search
    the idea
    the ideal of love
    but never the reality
    prince charming on the toilet...
    that's real
    not that we'll talk about it
    but it's true
    we're all fucked up
    I am anyway
    will the tarot work
    does it speak truth
    can it answer these questions
    that I can never quite get right
    my mind spins sometimes
    with wondering
    am I too broken
    to ever be happy
    what is happy?
    is happy a night on the town
    several margarita's
    smoking a bowl
    is that happy?
    it feels happy...at the moment
    well, maybe not happy, but better anyway.
    the comfort of oblivion
    the silencing of the voices
    that beg for answers
    to the three questions
    that don't have answers
    yet
    am I too hard on myself
    or not hard enough
    loving and loving not
    do you feel like this?
    do you waste away in your apathy
    paralysed
    because of these unanswerable questions
    stuck wondering if you're worth anything at all
    or if your imperfections
    your flaws
    those wrinkles and sagging skin
    the scars of a life lived
    define you more than what's
    inside
    where you tell yourself
    all the potential
    hides
    loving...not loving
    unloveable...loveable
    questions
    no answers
    does it matter?
    who am I
    if I never love
    and am never
    good enough
    to be loved

    I know the answer to that question

    I am just like you.

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    DARKPOET113 commented on afternoon delight

    07-27-2009

    wow. such bravery to bare it all with no regrets. i applaude you. you are everything you think you couldnt possibly be. keep your head high, our feet may drag in the gutter at times, but we can always wash our feet and try again. stay cool.
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    ChrisP commented on afternoon delight

    07-27-2009

    You are not like most people, you are a master of images. Your poem run on state routes, not major Highways, which by the way is refreshing. Life needs writer with your passion. Stay clear of hubris and you will be fine.
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    oldgoat commented on afternoon delight

    07-26-2009

    You really have alot going on inside you right now, mountains and valleys...neither last. Your writings are really great! I can really feel your heart in stuff you've written. You are still so much younger than you realize and from your words, you are more worthy of love than you realize. Words from the heart speak so much of who a person really is. You may have to struggle climbing a few mountains, but you will find your mountain peak...the peace....... tenderpoision, your writing is really great! Don't ever quit or give up!
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    frog commented on afternoon delight

    07-26-2009

    This write is very touching. It reminds me that 'normal' is a setting on my dryer, and not a word to judge onself by. Other people's behavior, our thoughts, or feelings doesn't define who we are. What doesn't kill us can make us stronger. Chin up :)
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    Hampton commented on afternoon delight

    07-26-2009

    I will read this again in a couple of days and post my final comments. This is much to digest in only a few minutes. In the meantime reread your last twenty poems, they may contain an answer to who you are. I will do likewise.
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    tenderpoison

    07/26/2009

    oh my friend...but I am so very, very many things...

    Poetry comes nearer to vital truth than history.

    Plato (BC 427-BC 347) Greek philosopher.

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