kudos

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    kudos
    something buried deep
    i thought to hide
    but never from myself
    afraid if i remove this mask
    my demon will come out to play
    I don't care, I will welcome it
    uncontainable
    unrestrainable
    red rage
    killing rage
    righteous rage
    I know the taste of hate
    and it is sweet
    the power to deny everything
    but myself
    I have the right
    I have paid the fucking ferryman
    I have sacrificed all that I was
    until I am nothing
    and now everything
    I am what matters to me
    and somewhere in this empty
    lifeless fucked-up world
    is someone who will understand
    me
    not empty, not lifeless
    a heartbeat
    a breath
    an idea
    a right to live
    by my own standard
    to my own satisfaction
    to smile when I want
    not on command
    like some cheap whore
    bought with no more than empty promises
    of love that is never love
    SO WHAT YOU FUCKED ME
    SO WHAT
    this is the measure of your manhood
    that you FUCKED ME
    you did nothing
    but fuck me over
    and fuck me up
    so yeah...take your fucking kudos
    you fucked me good
    but you never loved me
    because you never knew me
    and you never understood
    me
    at all

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    soulwriter commented on kudos

    06-19-2009

    I understand the depth of this and the power of your words as you offer a one fingered word salute to the offender. You left me a bit speechless with the raw rage - allowing each reader to appreciate depravity of the situation and the devoured sense of being in the creation. If your were my daughter I would be reprimanding you for your language (LOL), however I respect you for your use of language used freely as your will commanded. Keep creating and expressing!
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    travisd76 commented on kudos

    06-18-2009

    I understand you... as do all of your readers. Well written. It seems you are letting your anger show more vividly with each new write. I don't know what to say, on one hand I love to read your work, but on the other I feel so sorry for your situation and hope everything works out for you. Bit of a potty mouth there! :))
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    Hampton commented on kudos

    06-18-2009

    This poem exhibits an avalanche of anger that just keeps building until it erupts with a crescendo of profanities. Well written but your friends feel your pain.
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    Artie commented on kudos

    06-18-2009

    Hmmm..... I'm searching for the right words.... I think I Love You!!! LOL- I think this is a beautiful romantic cry for love. I know when you want him to smile- when you're near. Not because he's told, but because, he wants to. 10 from me..
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    optimistic commented on kudos

    06-17-2009

    Wow!!!!!!!!!!! Deep Who in a mans situation would beat on a womans mind so talented? You're such a talented artist unrecognizable with words. you caught me thru this poem of pain and vivid imagination with rage and anger. Way out of your character so I know this was not a good time. Screw him love you. Keep writing as you bleed out your pain and slash him with your pen. Excellent write.
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