Alone at Night

So many long hours in bed
Restless thoughts in my head
Craving the warmth of flesh
With which to intermesh
I so desire to share my heat
With someone I can complete
But cold in my loneliness I sit
Writing poems of little wit
So unoriginal and cliched
This is all my efforts have made
Or at least that's what I think
When staring into the brink
Of my own bleeding heart
Wishing I could just restart
It saddens me so to be this way
But there is little I can do or say
To change the road I am on
I just pray I'm not too far gone
It seems I'll be okay in the end
And I know I'll always have a friend
At least inside of my own mind
One who's never hard to find
Look at how I'm thinking
While watching my clock just blinking
I can't bring myself to fix it
So its wrongness is deliberate
I tell myself this for other things too
Especially when I'm feeling blue
It helps me feel just a little better
At the moment though I'm not weepy
Merely pensive and much too sleepy
But sometimes it takes all my might
To ignore the fact that I'm always alone at night