Lonely Girl, I'm Feeling the Way You're Feeling: But We Can Both Make It Through

Lonely Girl,

     Here I am again, for you. I hope you have read what I posted to you, about how to deal with anxiety attacks.

     Of course, the problems we have in life have to be dealt with. They don't usually just go away.

     I'm scared, you know. Sometimes I'm lonely because, even though I have friends, I feel so cut off from everyone sometimes, because how could they know how I feel?

     I know fear. I know sadness and sorrow. I know grief. I know what anxiety is, I have suffered it. Panic attacks, too. 

     I struggle through them, and when I successfully break through to the free world outside, I notice that the thing that scares me is still there. Why does it sometimes overwhelm me, and other times not? Just one of those questions no one knows the answer to. 

     Yet, I have loved the light of the moon and stars, despite the monster being there. I have enjoyed the company of friends, with the monster sitting at the table with us. I have loved listening to music, reading, even dreaming, while the monster watched, waiting for me to be weak so it could pounce on my heart.

     But it is only when I am weak, when I lose all hope, when I forget that nothing lasts forever anyway, and that we have to kiss and caress our moments of time as they slip away, or else we really lose them forever--that no moment that was lived and enjoyed was really lost, even though it is now gone--it is only when I am weak and I forget to feel my own heart's love of life fully, only then do I crash into despair.

     Somehow, using the ways I told  you about, I climb back out of the pit, and look again at the rising sun.

     All I know for sure is: Life is good, when you let it be.

     Bye now.

     --PWC
aka Michael LP, aka Mr. Poet