There are demons I must exorcise before I depart this earth

To find peace for my soul, and leave with my conscious clear

My quest is to reconcile the sins of another time

Those with you are the ones I have my greatest regrets

In my anticipation, I feel a certain anxiousness

Now we're in touch it seems suddenly I am afraid

Perhaps it was not a good idea to meet with you?

Is it because of what we had came to it's own end

Or am I burdened by how I preyed upon an unsuspecting you

I find myself agonizing over what you thought of me then

More important what now will you think of me now?

What could I say or do to reconcile all that I put you through?

If I convey another side of me I never showed before

Will it be enough or you'll consider it a most insincere thing to do

Since humility was never a strong part of the one I used to be

How do I avoid not slipping back into old accustomed ways?

To being the one you will remember, not who I am today

What is it about the thought of coming face to face with you?

That intimidates me in ways perhaps we both may never know?

Do I fear you will see me now as sad and pathetic figure?

Not some you stalwart, from another time I perceived myself to be

Will it matter I may not have gotten all that I deserved?

Yet, I deserved all that I got, whether it was justifiable or not

Am I that afraid to let you see me the way I am now?

Compared to those times of I lived in foolish glory

If I fall short of how you perceive me to be

What would you say then, would you pity me?

Why does it frightens me so to see you again?

When with great trepidation I who initiated the contact

Was it out of humility, I wanted my conscious clear?

Why am I afraid you might ask yourself why now,

after all these years, I got the urge to get in touch

Could it possibly be for whatever the reason

Just as I am now, I've always been afraid of you

Since languishing in the random thoughts that I do

only confirms possibly some of them are true.
Yet, to unburden my soul and to exorcise my demons

I know I must once again come to face with you.