I’m looking to find what’s sufficient for me and not follow after you

You always seem to think you know the best for me but that’s not true

So I close my eyes and let my mind drift to a place where I wish to be

But I know this is only a dream that I live so nothing is real that I see

I’m constantly having these nightmares which I have let manifest within

Our mind hides a world of secrets that tell us a story of how things begin

The miracle of life itself is a form of the supernatural wonders that stream

Driven by a passion so beautiful that it feels like I’m trapped inside a dream

At times I fear the thought of being wrong about how our world operates

The way it can subdue our hearts from finding hope that truly subjugates

This weakness that confines my own abilities to push forward to success

As were pressured into altering our judgment so were left here powerless

My mind grows frail when its deprived of spiritual substance that it needs

For a soul cannot stay pure surrounded by this sick disease to which it feeds

Entering my bloodstream so it can kill my heart that dies slow to this parasite

No longer feel alive because my source of strength is not found in the light

What do you root your faith in since all I can see is darkness present here

Nothing that you’ve given me is any good cause I fail to see things clear

I need an antidote to repair this torn soul that’s been through far too much

Your struggle to understand will end when you feel God’s healing touch

The truth will open doorways that you locked away and never walked in

Resistance from God will make you grow cold like death born out of sin

As your flesh struggles against the spirit that is burning with utmost desire

These pleasured eyes still try to target their focus in on receiving spiritual fire

Fear becomes my worst enemy since it pushes my heart from the faith I need

Wounds inflicted on me from past mistakes won’t heal so I continue to bleed

Growing weaker from the pain that turns my soul sour as I fail to feel alive

And with the wake of disaster following my path I take this sudden dive

My heart is left to rust and burn down to nothing from all its suffered through

Your lies will try to crush my bones as I collapse to my weaknesses that subdue

Any chance of gaining the motivation needed to break off the chains that bind

This world is a taste of hell that’s filled with desperate souls that never find

Life is a book of memories that are stained like blood inside our fragile mind

We battle wars within our hearts that can’t see tomorrow’s fate we might find

If only we could run backwards in time as the years slip by and we grow older

I need the comfort of a friend who can take my burdens and lay them on his shoulder

My heart is often starved of the truth that it needs in order to grow strong

suffering from this spiritual anorexia that has my soul bleeding for so long

For I’ve been without any guidance so I wander trying to find a safe place

I need to feel Your mercy fall over my eyes as you shine down on my face

Oh Lord your endless love has me lost in this trance that I romantically embrace

This beautiful moment in time is fading but You are forever pouring out grace

How I long to feel your power burning inside this heart that is thirsty for more

For only You can bring new life to my eyes that give us reason to let faith soar

Come recognize this power resting deep within your soul that never seems to sleep

For I will continue to return with this force of spiritual energy that helps to keep

My spirit fully alive and restored as our Majestic God claims me as His very own

And after I take my last breathe I’ll be carried away to the Lord’s heavenly throne

Brett Fletcher 5/6/06