©2010 Who I am

Yeah, Im very gay
but that doesnt define
who I am any day
I am many things in time.

rooms spinning a little to much drink
Ive cleared my mind, an open pad
I now can openly think
though Im drunk a tad.

Im not one to indulge in this
but I needed to be other than me
numb stupor alcholic bliss
temporary fix so I can see....clearly

I fell into this hole , so deep it is
hoping to feel anything but what I am
I thought I saw you cry , what gives?
do you love me arent we family? Damn.

Im open now no more closets to hide in
Im not afraid of damnations or their judgements
I only want to begin again , no fear of sin
why then do I feel so damn Bent?

I miss those gone, as well as those still here
this separation from a life I lived now past
surely you dont hate me because Im a Queer
what gives? I love you and life goes too fast.

Ive gone from beer to gin and juice
Im clear on my intentions now
there's nothing more for me to loose
cant you just love me, forget golden idols and cows?

Im here when you decide Im family
I cant lie and say Im innocent
I need you all no matter how I try
to forget I do , I feel so spent.

can you just love me for who I am
the good the bad, as I do you
this pretention I cannot stand
Im sick of feeling blue, missing you.