"Move it around, He'll think it misplaced"
acts of mock kindness, well thought diversions
"after all he isnt my real son and he's disgraced
us all with his preferences and perversions."

Did you try out of love? some mercy killing?
or was it to save face, am I the stain you wont wear?
Did I deviate too far from the norm into the unreal
Will you ever be truthful? this deception I cant bear.

I follow His word, I am kind to everyone
I look for the good even in my worst enemies
do you see my life as buried and done?
did you ever have faith in me, in what I could be?

I'll keep looking past your idiosyncratic ways
though I know you hold me not in well esteem
I do what is right with every passing day
My God can you show me what it all means.

No roads to a better future, living in an open cell
just me , my thoughts and the will to write
sometimes I feel the licking flames of hell
I need more than their flicker for light.

Despite all of this I still love you
I wish I knew that you felt the same
but you leave me wondering, what is truth?
Is it just another in a line of fool's games?

You've fallen so far from what is good
lost in a world in which they wish you to be
can you still do what you know you should?
I wish you'd open your eyes and see.