Estranged
So this is what I’ve been warned about
This is the reality of it all?
Stuck in morning traffic
Trapped by my own walls
Sarcasm sweetens the deal
Consumer by name and game
Crooked smile shopping spree
“Freethinking” that it’s all the same
Coffee addiction
TV obsession
Sexual frustration
Facebook confession
The people on TV make my existence seem pretty meek
The circuits hiss just beneath the screen
Rented me a funny movie
Ordered me some soylent green
Darfur dwarfs my millenarianistic illness
And I don’t know what to say
I throw some money at the screen
And pray it’ll just go away
Life-affirming escape to the movies
Ugly malicious truth
Slowly but steadily falling apart
What happened to my ever so treasured youth?
We’ve got pills for that
Oscillating between dys- and euphoria
Laugh until my head comes off
Induced phantasmagoria
Blind dating just to get out of the house
Brushed my teeth real hard before I went
Feel so pathetic, can’t follow it through
Goes home alone as if that had all along been my intent
Nights out with my friends
Meta-humor and genuine laughter
Making and breaking reality
Saving the thinking until after
The occasional use of drugs
An extremely unhealthy tendency
But in my high I ask
Is it better to be or to be free?
I want to get back inside
But seems to have lost my way
Longing for an undoing of life
On this most common of stranger days
I just wanna talk it out doc
But it seems we’re all out of time
I don’t know what to do
But make these therapeutical rhymes
Keeping up my mental circumvention
As to not go insane
Subtle ripples of utter despair
Going through my distracted brain
Never think I can make it through the night
But somehow I always do
Clarity is a motherfucker
When I’d rather be fantasizing about any number of you
The sun stuffs my apartment with mellowness
A cup of coffee and a dose of government approved news
Going out to seem invincible
Selling myself walking alter ego shoes
I tried to do something with my life
But flunked out of class
Establishment, this one’s for you
I feel like going Tyler Durden on your ass
Our stated goals makes no sense
Kinda sorta fed up with western plutocracy
I only have my empathic nature to blame
For not being able to make any money
Corporatism under my skin
Sponsored military intervention
No villains or menacing laughter
Evil by way of good intentions
History ebbs and flows
But where the fuck are we?
Living it up, easy going
Contemplating suicide secretly
That we’re all this messed up
Seems like poor consolation
We should have stuck with the hunting
Looking forward to my vacation
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