So Close Yet So Far

The time apart makes me remember all the times before
The smiles that I never had to force
And the tears I never had to worry about haunting me
Because you were always right behind me

Even when we weren't together I never felt alone
It was like we were never separated
A bond between us that I have with no one else in the world
The truest in every aspect in my life

And now that this crazy alignment in the universe has brought us back together
It kills me inside because I know I can't hug you
I can't talk to you nor can I even just see you without saying a word
Those cherished silent conversations and late night shenanigans

My left, my right, my up but never my down
My East, my West, My South and always my North
So close yet so far and I have nothing to show
For you're here over there and I'm here stuck over here

I have no choice but to await the moment we collide
It'll literally be the happiest moment of my life since we been apart; since I've been here alone
For I'll finally have a taste of something familiar
I miss the bandaid that always held me together

So close yet so far away
I can only say and do so much until I see what I know is true
And that's you being here after so long
But I'm scared to remember how not to force a smile