the sea

As is the sea
as is the inside of me
the deeper you go
the darker it gets

light top waters
give off shining impressions
no one chooses to dive
find out if you are realy as happy
as those sparkling top water smiles decive

no one chooses to look
to know whats the deal with you
know why you cry
understand the reason
  you dont know how to fly
understand your fears

take a leap of faith
but they only see the view
they never look deeper
and i dont know how to show them

the only time the darkness in me comes out
the only time i let my pain show
is in the storm
no one sticks around
they think im crazy

no one comes to the beach when it rains
when i cry
they just wait until i seem safe
stable

they wait until i make myself bury the problems
because its better to be bottled up
better to be hidden
better behind the shells
behind the armor
better then being alone

think about it

has anyone ever been to the heart of the ocean?
no one cares to look

the only people i let close to my heart
are the ones who tear me apart

why cant they just love me?
why cant they just care?
why do i always fail to notice
those motives

those stupid airs they put on
those masks they use
that armor they cover their souls with

i get distracted by the shine
i see my reflection
i think to myself
'hey they are just like me'
so why would i not trust them?

so i pour out my soul
they take all of my energy
they take all  my time
then they leave me
one 
by 
one
they form this presession line

they leave me
weak
no where to go
they take everything

its odd how if you do something for sommeone
you think they would do the same for you
just so you know
it isnt true

but still i am here
waiting for the storm to be over
waiting for some peace