There are so many things

So many choices that I refuse to make.

Because its too hard

I wake up every day wishing I was stronger then I am

That I could face the day today

With a clean record,

I just cant.

I have everyday reminders.

I lived in hate, now I am tagged by it.

One of hates careless victims

One of a blades countless slaves

And it makes me want to

   Scream    run      cry

Scream:

I want to scream just like my skin does,

Even without a voice it can scream, it can sing

It can yell to anyone with eyes.

It will tell some of the biggest truths,

The ones I wish were lies.

Run:

I want to run forever, I just want to start over

Run to a new place, run from my past

Run from the pain that I feel

I want to run until I take the world, until it all makes sense

I want to run away.

Cry:

I know I can't scream, society makes it so.

I know I can't run, my weakness doesn't run that deep.

All that leaves is to secretly weep

Cry my tears when no1's  around

Time alone is just time to be myself,

   To curl up, and cry like the little lost girl that I am.