Now that I know all that wasn’t, it saddens me

Still now that you are gone, I also miss all that you were

How can I miss what I never had, no kisses, no hugs, NOT once the touch of your skin

Then again, you touched me with your words and you delighted me with the sound of your voice

Suddenly I had no choice but to lose what wasn’t mine

Things became more difficult as the deceptions became more real than what I had perceived

The tearing of our souls ripped me apart, as desperately I clung to the hope of one day being with you

We parted ways, and soon you replaced this soul mate with another

Somehow I grew to understand for though we shared many things, we were nevertheless separate

You barely looked back and I always tried to look forward

So why is it that when I lay in bed some nights you flow back into the pictures of my mind

I find myself missing the laughter on the phone and all the promises of sharing real adventures

And all those verbal pictures that placed you naked against my bare chest, head nestled under my chin

Fantasies created and lived all in the stolen moments that we dare keep hidden from the real world

I can't help but remember a million words shared both written and spoken

Recalling the tokens of the heart that a certain kind of love creates

We had seen each other in pictures, but nothing so revealing as to what we held in our imaginations

It’s been forever since we shared our thoughts; I wonder do you ever think of me