Im not who They want...

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    Sometimes you learn that, when you begin to grow up into your own person, the thoughts and ways you grew up with might now always be yours. You get stuck in them though, because of a sense of duty to your family... so what happens when you cant deal with it?

    Im not who They want...

    "What is that?"
    how should i know?
    "Youre bleeding Audrey"
    and now your frown grows...

    "That not the way to go."
    go where?
    "I thought you werent like that"
    like you ever cared...

    "I thought you were better."
    nope, im just me.
    "Do you really wanna give it all up?"
    if it makes me happy.

    "We taught you better."
    oh yes, yes you did...
    "We love you Audrey"
    Audrey's some other kid...

    "God, help us help her..."
    i dont need any help...
    "She is starting to stray"
    oh no, ive started being myself...

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    MorsetBillie commented on Im not who They want...

    10-13-2010

    a sad real life situation expressed through the splendorous poetic way.Nice one hey,most of us have experienced that already and others are currently experiencing it while some are yet to experience it within the journey of life.It makes me love poetry:bringing out the facets of life in a crafty fashion of language.
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    ImStillHere

    10/13/2010

    yeah, i'm kinda going through it right now, soo... andpoetry does do that :) thats what makes it so amazing. ~Audrey

    Amber041792 commented on Im not who They want...

    09-21-2010

    i really love this one! i've been going through the same thing, definitly finding myself. one thing i keep in mind is that you can't make everyone happy so just stay true to yourself. definitly love it!
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    lonewolf commented on Im not who They want...

    09-15-2010

    I agree with Chaos. Learn to love yourself first. Learn to be yourself. You can't live up to everyones expectations, you will be miserable. Trust me, I tried. Live for you.
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    ImStillHere

    10/12/2010

    ill keep that in mind :) ~Audrey

    Chaos128 commented on Im not who They want...

    09-11-2010

    It's a tough road trying to be the person you are, instead of the person other people want you to be. Learning to love yourself is the first step, it makes coming to grips a whole lot easier. Great work.
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    ImStillHere

    10/12/2010

    Ty :) ~Audrey

    SuSpence commented on Im not who They want...

    09-11-2010

    Terrific write to capture the angst and frustration seemingly all of us have felt at some time or another, when we reach the point of free thinking, coming to our own conclusions, making our own impressions. And this sometimes conflicts with those whom we love, even those who have instilled these now fragile beliefs in us which we are now contemplating. There is no growing older, time is inconsequential, we just grow wiser, and it seems you are wise beyond your years. You are way ahead of the game and a terrific writer from what I have read thus far. Peace and Love, Spence
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    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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