Exiting... From Center Stage.

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    I guess I should tell you the background on this... My stepdad (whom has always been "dad" to me) was really abusive when I was a child, especially to me and my mom. He always stayed though, like maybe things would change (which they kinda did)... Things are a little better, but he still gets realy intense... and now, bc of all MY own anger, Im getting intense too... And its killing me inside...

    Exiting... From Center Stage.

     One
        two
            three...
    Tick
                 Tock
    Tick
                 Tock...
    Four
         five
              six...
    Seconds
                 go
    by
                 quick...
    But anger stays there for years...

    Did
              you
    know,
              Dad?
    I bet you didnt.
    That
              I
    hate 
              you?
    Nope, you just dont understand.
    And
               how
    could 
               you?
    Its not like I ever talk about it.
    But
               then
    again
               Dad,
    that shouldve been the first clue...

    You see silence is the best way
    to
               make
    sure
               you
    dont 
               yell
    at
               me...
    But who thought that hate would turn
    and
               make
    hurting
               myself
    the
               best
    policy?
    Rediculous, right?
    I
              mean
    really?
    Slitting
              slivers,
    watching the clock go
    Tick
              Tock
    Tick
              Tock?
    Waiting
              for
    the
              gun
    to
              get
    cocked?
    And then blasting...
    Damn...

    I
                never
    used
                to
    think this way...
    And
                 its
    funny...
    'Cause you think I'm changing because of my friends...
    But
                  really,
    Its
    all
    on
    you...

    You 
                 made 
                                me
                                           this
                                                      way...
    You
                 think
    my
                 tantrums
    are
                  bad?
    Just wait...
    Because
                  obviously
    you
                   dont
    get 
                   the
    fact...
    That you are just making me worse...
    So
                   go
    on
                   and
    set
                   the
    stage...
    For the biggest show in the world...
    The
                   day
    your
                   "baby
    girl"...

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    fallenknight commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

    12-15-2010

    I love this poem. It reminds me a lot of my Death Clock poem. It also strikes a chord in my own life, but on the other side. Let the sadness of regret come and wash over me again and again...
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    ImStillHere

    12/16/2010

    hmmm i'll check your poem out sometime. :) thanks for commenting ~Audrey

    Olan01 commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

    12-15-2010

    Family relationships are fragile, at best, my young friend; but things do improve I promise you as you mature. Mark Twain once said, and I paraphrase, When i was a teenager I thought my father was so dumb but by the time I reach my mid-twenties I was surprise at how much he had learned in such a short time. I have read that you have not done a good job parenting until your children say they hate you. I hope you stay safe Happy Holiday, Olan.
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    ImStillHere

    12/15/2010

    haha maybe, but... sometimes its just not good parenting at all. Its really bad parenting... like, yeah, he may have good intentions, but he goes about it the wrong way. and even then there are times when it has nothing to do with parenting at all... I hope you have a happy holiday too. ~Audrey

    ahardwalk commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

    12-15-2010

    The pain family can install in us is crazy but letting them tear you down and kill you is the worst thing you can do we cant pick our family but we can pick how we handle it and embrace our struggle to help another whose in our footsteps struggling to breath.... Powerful piece!!
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    ImStillHere

    12/15/2010

    Thank you. and your advice is sound. the thing is, i dont really know how to handle it. ive kept it all bottled inside for years, ya know? But i definatly would hate letting anyone go through this like i have... ~Audrey

    angelchaser commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

    12-14-2010

    You have no idea how badly I wish I lived in Texas right now. I wanna help you so bad and I can't and THAT'S killing me. *hugs*
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    ImStillHere

    12/15/2010

    I know you do hun... but dont worry about me, kay? ill figure out how to handle things. I mean, ive handled it for about 10 years already... ~Audrey

    Chaos128 commented on Exiting... From Center Stage.

    12-14-2010

    Ouch! All fastballs, high and inside. And here I was gonna tell you you remind me of Ellen Page : D
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    ImStillHere

    12/14/2010

    ha Juno... HOW? (but yes, i know. if i softened it up, then it kinda loses... everything.) ~Audrey

    The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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