Letting go

I thought the end of us was hard,
but I did not know what hard was.
Letting go of us and moving
on trumps all the rest.
No longer being your special
someone hurts like a live wire
to my heart.
Having all of these unresolved
emotions that I can't seem to shake,
I find myself lost without you.
Used to being a pair, a couple,
a combined entity, but now I have
to regress to being single.
Just being friends with you
without any benefits attached
seems unreal, and wrong.
Not having the one I want just
memories is a trip I wasn't
prepared to take.
I thought it would be easy
distancing myself from you,
changing my habits.
I was wrong saying goodbye
is the most painful part of love,
and the hardest thing to do.