Confusion

Vividly unclear and difficult to understand,
no hope of logic forever obscured from
view.
Banging my head against the block of
cement that used to be our relationship.
Unable to decipher what went so wrong
with what used to feel so right.
After all is said and done between us
I still find myself clinging to hope of a
future between you and me.
Jealousy builds and brains evaporates,
all I see is the ends not the means.
How stupid could I be? I still desire
what was never meant to be.
Please don't leave, please don't
break my heart, please don't
forget about us.
Time and time again it is all you do,
make me love you then hate you more.
Hurting me is your best party trick
and you do it far to well.