From The Bottom Of My Heart

From the bottom of my breaking heart
The deepest depths of my soul
I hate that I let down my guard
And told you things you shoudn't know
From the emptiest part of my world
And the coldest surface of my face
I really wanted to be that girl
The one that held your heart in place
I can't say it enough times to you
How sorry I truly am
The things that I put you through
I just hope you understand
From the darkest spot in my mind
My decisions were not smart
I apologize a million times
From the bottom of my heart
The poems that I wrote for you
Showed you who I am
Gave you little tiny clues
Made you understand
But I should never have let you in
I should have kept it all inside
I don't even know where to begin
To dry the tears from my eyes
I should've kept you far away
Always at arm's length
I never knew there'd come a day
Where I'd lose all of my strength
But somehow my heart refused to run
As my mind told me I had to
But you made me see life was fun
So I was drawn to you
I tried and tried with all my might
To make you go away
But as I stayed up alone at night
I knew I needed you to stay
I'm so sorry for all the things
I ever said to you
For telling you that you're my wings
And you are my dream come true
I opened up my world to you
And bore my entire soul
Told you things nobody knew
Now I have to let you go
I take back all the things I said
Every single poem I sent
I'm sorry you were in my head
I'm sorry you never meant
Every word you said to me
About how sweet and great I was
I was blind but now I see
You lied like everyone does
You turned your back and rebuilt your wall
Now I shall rebuild mine
I never wanted myself to fall
But I could have over time
So from the dimmest light you can see
In the blackness of the dark
I apologize for being me
From the bottom of my heart