Maybe this feels like its getting
More difficult
Because I am finally
Coming closer to it
Perhaps I'm not reverting
At all
But inching and leaping
Closer to it than
I was ever capable of before
This perception takes a bit of
The weight and self-judgment
Out of it
To realize I am actually
Progressing instead of reverting
Evolving instead of de-evolving
Coming closer instead of drifting further
Feeling instead of numbing
I've been trapped in a box
And I have grabbed hold
Of the key
And it is rough and cutting me,
Making my hands bleed
To turn it
But if it means
Freedom,
I will welcome the pain
And keep turning the key
To Freedom
My hands will heal
My heart will heal
My mind and body and spirit
Will heal
But all shall remain in darkness
If I choose not to choose freedom
I choose freedom
So bring on the fire
Let it burn away
All the old patterns
Useless cycles
Craziness
Shame
Depression
Anger
RAGE
Let it burn clean and pure
Release these energies
Back to the heavens
To be transmuted and reborn
Into something beautiful