Don't you get it?

This lane is going much too fast for me.

I know I can go faster

But my mind won't function that fast.

I'm not ready.

I'm falling behind.

I know how to catch up,

I just can't seem to.

I'm not ready.

You say that I have everything

That I could ever want

And still you say I have more.

But I'm not ready.

People keep pushing me forward

Rushing to go faster

But I don't want to go.

I'm not ready.

Can't you see?

I cannot do

Everything you say,

Everything you tell me to do.

But then again,

You never listen.

I'm falling apart.

Because of you.

You won't listen.

But then again,

You never listen.

Can't you see

That I'm not ready?

Can't you tell

That I'm not perfect?

Even though,

You want me to be?

Even though,

You think I should be?

You might be perfect,

Hell, you can be perfect all you want.

You already are perfect.

Or so you seem to think.

But I'm not perfect.

I will never be perfect.

No matter how badly you want me to be.

Nothing you say can make me perfect.

I am not supposed to be perfect.

I do not belong in a perfect world.

I do not need to be perfect.

I am not perfect.

I have no inclination

Or reasoning to be perfect

Other than that you seem to think

That I have to be.

That I am supposed to be.

Not being perfect

Does not make me a freak.

It does not give you a reason

To screw me over.

It does not mean that you have to try

To ruin my life

Because I am not perfect

And I never will be.

You have no right to threaten me,

No right to ruin me,

No right to claim that I am a slut,

Or to break me down to nothing

And crumble the walls

That hide my tears.

You have no right at all

To ruin me in the eyes of all that listen

And watch every insecurity come tumbling out

As my strength is destroyed

By your screams of slander.

Can't you see

That you are the reason

I am breaking apart?

Can't you see

That you are making me

Turn to pieces?

Can't you see

That you are causing

Everything I know to fall away?

Can't you see

That I am not ready?

But I know,

That you  are.

You are ready.

You are always ready.

Ready to break me apart,

Ready to turn me to pieces.

But I'm not ready.

At this rate, I will never be ready.

Leave me alone,

Let me pick up my pieces,

And scream to the world

That you are wrong.

Let me stand up

And grow strong,

Until I can look into your eyes

And tell you I'm stronger

Then you will ever be,

And let me be right.

Let me scream,

Let me stand,

Let me take your word

And crush it in my hand.

Let me take what you've said

And take what you've done

Let me ruin you

The way you are ruining me.

Let me break you to pieces

And burn down your life.

Let me do to your world

What you have done to mine.