"The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude" :: MalikPeterson :: Original Poetry

"The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude"

The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude

All I do is lie...
when you look into my eyes...
you can’t see me cry...
because it’s from behind this guise.

So I don a disguise...
of whatever you surmise.
You would be unpleasantly surprised...
if you were to realize...
the number of the times...

each day...my innards die.

So I feign to be alive...
my forces are allied...
my courses never denied...
my well being...implied.

I laugh and I chide...
with pleasantry of a piper pied...
fire a wink and a nod to the passer by...
while facing...firing squad executing me inside...

But through onlookers’ eyes...

Still I rise...

Still I rise...

Still I wait...

till this next one’s over.

As global weight rests on shoulders...
I’m Charles Atlas...
just a poser.

I’m a juxtaposed blur...
internally a reckless soldier.
front line battle...just the culture.
I don’t see blue skies...
just the vultures.

A tepid smolder...
or...a hardy boil...
each one brings my exit closer.

At best...I can’t accept the path of an over dose-r...
I never take the easy ride...
always the roller coaster.

Yet I can’t drop the act.

I’m stuck in character...
until this show is over...

but every now and then...

even the greatest fortresses...
.
.
.
.
come to know exposure.

© 2010 Malik Peterson. All Rights Reserved

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blackfootlady commented on "The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude" 10-30-2010: This is very intreguing for the few that can't get that far.Excellent write.I two had to read a few times before i got the full value from this piece.I try not to lie but honesty can get others around you in trouble too,lol.So I've noticed.; Reply to Comment

MalikPeterson 02/16/2011: lol thanks for stopping by...appreciate your time!

Ming commented on "The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude" 10-29-2010: Malik this is a great write, I read it a couple of times and every time I read it, a light was shone on some familiarity found in myself or some distant obscurity I though I had forgotten or suppressed.. -Ming; Reply to Comment

MalikPeterson 02/16/2011: soooooooooooooo late I know...but haven't been around much...appreciate you stopping by as always...glad you found another that you enjoyed!

Lyricallor commented on "The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude" 09-28-2010: So many of us live behind that protective guise in order to survive in a world of insanity. The writer takes us on that planar path of life and brings us back to reality at the end where we must face transparency and the inevitable loss of that protection.; Reply to Comment

MalikPeterson 09/29/2010: For sure...thanks for stopping by...and I appreciate your comments :)

EvilEyes commented on "The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude" 09-03-2010: Excellent write.... bringing the darkness of every day life to light... The disguises people wear to cover the trouble with in...... as simple as a smile to cover the tears and turmoil they are in.... Yet still holding strong to the bearings of life.... In hopes that one day all things will be right.... Not wanting to take the easy way out.... covered by the smile generated from your mouth... I have one similar and less refined called every day suicide.... I enjoy your writing cant wait to see more; Reply to Comment

MalikPeterson 09/07/2010: Thank you much...I am really glad you enjoyed this one :)

JamilahAyanna commented on "The Gaudy Guise Of External Fortitude" 07-14-2010: Wow very exquisite piece of work here.....I love the many thoughts and challenges u give the reader to interpret and think about on their own and dis did it for me Malik.....so many secrets do we keep shielded behind these many disguises.....very nyce detailed work of art...; Reply to Comment

MalikPeterson 07/18/2010: Thank you much jammy...I am glad you liked yet another piece of mine. Always glad when you stop by :)

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