The air is crisp and cool,
My lungs expand as I draw a breath in,
Plastered tears on my face,
Have been ruminated,
And sent hurtling into space,
Now there parties a smile,
Drinking and laughing,
Bubbly at last,

You don't bring tears,
The memory of your face maks me warm inside,
Like an old flame drawing near,
But now when your gone,
Happiness does not subside,
Instead i hurtle forward,
Embracing life,

Merely an ornamanent to me now,
Pretty and nice to the touch,
Sparkling, translucent colors, i wonder how,
I ever could have relied on them so much,
Inevitably one day you will break,
When you do,
I will not shatter,

At last i can be myself,
Drawing in another breath,
I haven't smiled yet,
Perceptively because i'm not considering death,
As i once would have,
Upon the prospect of him gone-i bet,
This is all quite odd and strange,
Hell, i love it,
Not close to what i felt though far from deranged,

I can't wait to tell him,
While i dance around my room,
Hair flying while sweat beads my skin,
I've freed myself at last,
Over a boy i'll not swoon,
Never again.