What We Seek and Do Not Find

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    What We Seek and Do Not Find

     Sometimes it makes me want to scream,
    this loneliness...

    I'm the girl who goes unnoticed,
    just a shadow of a person,
    here when you need me
    but somehow nonexistent.

    In a room full of people,
    I am the only one
    who is un-alive.

    I accept the fact that
    I don't matter
    but
     GODDAMN
    I wish I did.

    I'm tired of being strong,
    tired of pretending
    that I don't need anyone,
    that I'm happy to be alone.

    The truth is,
    I'm not strong at all;
    I'm just afraid to reveal
    my weaknesses.

    I want to be loved.
    I want to love.
    I want to
             FEEL something.

    I want someone
    to hold my hand
    and tell me that I'm beautiful,
    even if it isn't true.

    I want someone to need me.

    I want this silence to end.

    I want
    I want
       I WANT!

    I want to matter.

    I don't want to pretend
    to be strong
    anymore.
    I'm ready to be weak
    and let someone in.


    "It's easier to be hard
    than it is to be soft."

    I just want to matter
                    to someone.

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    Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

    Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

    hollowgirl’s Poems (38)

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    What We Seek and Do Not Find 0 12/21/2011
    Buried Alive 4 08/04/2010
    Shadow of Love 3 02/01/2010
    i have to ask 15 03/24/2009
    heart of stone 10 03/24/2009
    the struggle 5 03/24/2009
    I'LL NEVER LETGO 2 03/22/2009
    imprisoned 4 03/22/2009
    PASSAGES 1 03/22/2009
    LET HIM GO 2 03/22/2009
    GARDEN OF HOPE 2 03/22/2009
    WHISPERED NOTHINGS 0 03/22/2009
    ANYMORE 2 03/22/2009
    EMPTY PRETENSES 1 03/22/2009
    LIFE OF LIES 1 03/22/2009
    Shattered Heart 3 03/22/2009
    JUST GO 1 03/22/2009
    sifting through the madness 3 03/08/2009
    I REMEMBER 4 12/13/2008
    THIS TOO SHALL PASS 4 12/08/2008
    MIRROR OF TRUTH 8 12/04/2008
    untitled #18 2 12/04/2008
    Untitled # 7 3 12/04/2008
    SORROW 1 12/04/2008
    UNTRUE HEART 0 12/04/2008
    ALONE 1 12/04/2008
    i wonder 1 12/04/2008
    TIME TO SPARE 2 12/04/2008
    SHHH.... 4 06/12/2009
    THE DESTRUCTION OF MY MIND 0 12/04/2008
    the end 3 11/28/2008
    THE SEARCH 1 11/19/2008
    UNTITLED #12 1 11/19/2008
    DISTANT 1 11/19/2008
    FOR MEICHELLE 2 11/19/2008
    THE INNOCENCE THAT KILLS 2 11/19/2008
    ECHO 4 11/19/2008
    Sometimes 5 11/19/2008
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