Ru there holding my pillow in your hand killing my desire with a single stare, I need the relief but u wont give it to me. I'm suppressed by morals not jealousy . The truth I hide behind not strong enough to peak out on my own, but ill never kiss your toes, I'll hold all my own. Screams from my mind hearing inside the realms I cant see just you and me . Ur a tattle and a weasle and the pain rides up again as u attempt to mount me in the end , u don't care as my shadow whimpers over the pain I feel is just to real . The heart that breaks isn't mine for mine is trapped inside beating its last wing, willing to die as your pulling me in by my hair, I cant yell before u catch my stare and smack me around so my jaw drops open with blood on the floor. And u laugh in my face , shouting my name like its a curse. 

Telling me were all the same and demanding I bend to ur will as u make me face u, my heartbeat racing as u stand to kill me the knife draws as to close as u smack a shutter from my lips u cut out the words that I meant to say.

U tape me back to the bed and pull me under with dread I stare at the floor wishing for no more as u beat me over the head lifeless filling with dread. The window pops open and the breeze hits my beaten path as I try to retrace the blooded steps in my mind as u grab my face. U lean into kiss me and I knee u with glee as u clutch my groin to your chest with ur faulty need u grasp me and make me bleed with u in me. And I try to pull away knowing ill never fight another day. Death is all I see coming for me even now I know it wont hurt as much as staying here with him holding me dear. Wipe away those tears he shouts at me as he grabs my back and whips me I bend to his will from the chains around my hips not from solitude , but this I grasp myself as tight I can as I die again and again. 

Crying for time stalling as best I can,hopeful that he doesn't figure out my lie . Not this time so I may break free of his binds. A warning sound calls back my attention to his voice. It sounds wrong somehow , but I can't make out why. The horror on my face must show as he comes up with something new to turn me into. 

He hits me with the back of the broom as I try to sweep away the tears from my eyes,when all I want is freedom from this,this night this hell from him , from this.