moments fleeting

sometimes i wonder why i can't make anyone happy,including myself but then i bate an eye at the page again and i cry inside again. there not wet tears but dry. melting on the pillow as if on a page to dry to even really ever cry again. there's a moment where i'm lost feeling as if without a freind. can't be made happy not again, this is my moment i feel again. others pain is sometimes my cause again , but i can't make it go away for it will only come back another day, or come back the same worse again. i feel as if i don't every really have a freind.   there's many moments where i'm lost again. i feel as though the changes that make others aglow are lost to me somehow, wondering wandinering if ever how should i know where to go to achieve anything but this level of misery. i know that one day either it will end or i'll play a this song again. to soon to know, to far to go to grow another day, to go by another stray to know by , another snow to fall into by ,another day to pray and die.