mask

smiling happy
hiding behind a mask
going day by day
living a flawless lie
acting, pretending
deceiving even ourselves
smiling out in public
screaming behind closed doors
living this lie day after day
hiding secrets
keeping up this stupid pretense
envied by our peers
but internally hating ourselves
fear, hatred, anger
hidden behind a flawless mask
mental abuse is my comfort
emotional abuse is my praise
physical abuse is our love
our perfect lie becomes our perfect hell
every hurtful word cuts me inside
every problem blamed on me cuts my soul
every scar and every bruise
leaves its mark on my trust and my life
living this so called life
living this lie everyday
never knowing what love is
only knowing anger and hatred
believing i am not worth loving
promising never to love myself
or any one else
i smile in public
following the flawless lie
screaming and hurting anyone
who tries to show compassion
anyone who tried to show love
my hatred grows and grows
lashing out at those who don't
deserve my anger
slowly killing myself
not knowing how to change
only knowing the flawless lie
i wear my mask
lieing even to myself
unable to remove it
not even wanting to
so i lie this flawless lie
as i wear this lieing mask