Ejected safety gifts :: pura :: Original Poetry

Ejected safety gifts

Release the knots that would

Bind me in stress and anxiety!

Therapist told me to do it

When ever I feel emotional

so I always just do that

I never go over them and

change them because it's just as is that's my emotion and it's

so much easier to still stay silent

Within you know where I stand

On the edge with my feet

soaking in the ocean

My eyes closed as I drift

Through my broken heart

Affection kissed me as if to say

Only the lonely

There's a whole lot more to your smile

And I don't quite know how much I can take

My head is spinning I can't relax

Why are you here giving out flashbacks

I want to wrap my heart and seal it shut tight

I'm sick of battling the same same fight

Forgive me but it pains me to not be one that doesn't wake up

With you bringing me to rise

Time and time again

This is all to nerve racking

on as I endured

Pain in dreams not just in my head

My heart with unsung feelings

Shadows the clouds ganging over my bed

seams that don't say a word

Each strand unties way to fast

And now I sit with 2 pieces of heart

Each beat can't power up

Woke up in this dream to sleep in the next

Lost in a weary kind of frail behavior

This whole time I can't cut a loose thread

yet having sunk my teeth into the feeling it no longer binds me and plaits me and then knots me as blindly struggling to cope with

loosening the knots lets you

brush past me just enough, to startle me usually I step away

For some reason I feel

Maybe your feeling it too hopelessly

Oh maybe I'm in a world of my own and as annoying as I am

You see me as a reason to help

that it heals me err hope that you feel me I'm losing my focus and I wonder if a question you'll see it just a dramatic emotion stored in format

Ignore me just a little more

Close the sentence and shut down

Why is it so hard to wake up

When doing it all alone

When I sleep talk I sleepwalk

Then I'm responsible don't remember but it's hard to deny

I'm usually speechless unable to talk

Responsibility for every moment

Asleep or awake I take it

I trust you and don't think it a lie

I hope my life wakes up and finds what I stand for

so I can stop this way of life

Hope my intentions are pure

Subconscious please wake my conscious for lucid dreaming is

Constant in I'm always wondering

And the questions they just keep on coming

And the same thing I won't ignore

If I can't sleep I can't spend time awake

Please don't leave me stranded

Somewhere in between

Pointing out the door

Always the same thing

Go home

where I can live and seperatly it's a brain archive if my head did so speak it would say

hey take a look my mind here it is ! I'm an open book dare to turn the page

but warning my mind doth be aware enough to know home is empty I'll go there I love it but waking up is harder when facing it alone