Life is as you make it there are times that we all set back and look at this as a way to regroup. maybe even vent out some of the stresses that we have. I have learned a lot over the yrs.
My story is a sad one but I don't look at it that way. I look at the fact that I have someone special in my life. I have loved Lost and loved some more. I have given never really taking the pain I have had and dealing with it. I have cried I have screamed. I have lied and I have cheated. But in that I found something more important in my life. Myself. I have given to the ones that needed something. I have taken what has been given to me. I have family that is not blood. I have been foreseen as a monster, A bitch and I am sure I have been seen as a CUNT. But with all that I wonder do they really Know me? Most likely Not. I only give what I want to give and I hold back what I have to hold back. My life is Not all I would like it to be but in all in all I am happy with ME. I do as I need to. I see what I want to see. I don't try to judge the ones under me. or about me. I am me. I give to the ones I feel Need my help and love. I hide the feels of the ones that have hurt me. I ware my heart for all to see. I give this only to myself and to the ones that mean the most to me.

When LIfe was hard I turned into a bitching cunt from hell. I have had to forgive the ones that hurt me and ones I love. only take that pain and deal with it from all to see.
To look in the Mirror and see the age on my face. Where time as taken away the youth, replacing it with the woman I see today. A woman that has gained wisdom , pain and fear. I woman that has see more then her share.
To little side steps and maybe a jump or a fall. I am just me. This person setting here. This person that has lived this life and taken it and ran with it.

I haven't been as bad as I could have over the yrs. I haven't been down all the roads in my life. Yes some where rocky, some paved with gold. But I live the ones that have some dirt and rock in them.
I am what some would call the Girl Next door. A laied back, girl comfortable in any light. Makeup, hair spray , Nails and clothes is OK. But give me a pair of jeans and a holey t-shirt is my cup of tea.
I am not like others out there. cheap is my Idea of fun. a drive, a cheap movie at home on the couch. a home cooked meal works just fine for me.
A mans Dream I am told. A simple breed .