Regret and Shame

 wanting... 
 watching... 
 feeling... 
 falling... 
 wishing... 
 writing... 
 tempting... 
 typing... 
 come to me... 
 dreams of gold... 
 let me see... 
 what I can behold... 
 visions of joy... 
 visions of pain...
 for a little boy... 
 with my name... 
 reaching... 
 grasping... 
 touching... 
 clasping...
 golden dream flying away... 
 I reach for the string... 
 hoping it will stay... 
 in its' stead I feel the sting... 
 of grand reality gone... 
 fleeting by on the wind... 
 like a lazy drifting song... 
 a symphonic blend... 
 echoes of its' song... 
 ring through my mind... 
 ever thinking of what went wrong... 
 how can I be so blind... 
 mind's eye blinks... 
 closing out the world... 
 as my ship sinks... 
 while from it I am hurled...
 left floating in cold waters... 
 fighting to my life reclaim... 
 amidst things that no longer matter... 
 like regret and shame...