I already had a real love
one that was void of famiy.
I had a life of false hope
and many protective lies.

It was taken all away from me.
My cherished hopes and dreams
surgically cut away like a cancer.
Leaving empty picture frames
and an odd longing for what i knnow was once there.

I am now like a puzzle piece that is the 
wrong colors for the big picture
My plans dont matter anymore.
The world thinks me a whore.

I wanted to give and care for my loved ones and 
build a legacy to hand down,
now there is nothing to show for all of my hard work.
I feel like my life was stolen by
a lover sneaky in the night.

Why would I want to do it all again 
still for no children, and no family?
I dont think that I could ever 
get passed the feeling that it
would all be selfish and indulgent.

I am left with an overwhelming feeling
that it is too late.  
I feel too old to start all over again.
I feel as if it is too late for the old dreams
to come to fruition now.
I feel like I will never know the real truth of
the cause and reason for my turmoil.

I am labeled now,
 and because I am a survivor I am doomed
to walk alone, eat alone, sleep alone and  
always be dependent on others now. 
It is not in my nature.
 It feels uncomfortable and wrong.
 
Then I hear a song,
and I pray,
and somehow I believe
 it will all turn out ok.
I deserved so much more than ok. 
What else can I say, my life's been tough
and its too late now for it to ever be enough.