Life stays bad

Life just stays bad
Wake up in the morning mad cause you are still here .
Tell you about my life and I get no care
Happiness seems like it just ain't there.
To be suffering longer is my only fear.
Molested as a kid now my brain is messed up.
Lusting for body, breast and big butt.
Pray but this pain won't go away.
Both of my parents after I was 3 went astray.
Wish i was a kid again for I can play.
What is the use my life is the same everyday.
No more tear drops so dry is the sea.
My mom could die any day from HIV.
Sucking up sin so it is hard to breathe.
My mind is locked up and can't be free.
My family I didn't give them any reason to smile for me.
No job,no pay ,work harder then you get paid.
Poetry comes out sounding like a earth bound slave.
This is my life it get no better.
Trying to fly in bad weather.
Sometimes i am just ready to end it all.
While the rich smile in your face and brag how they ball.
 I am alone who will catch me when i fall.
Denied everything like a coaster ride and they say i am too small.
My baby momma denying me to even see a picture of  my kid.
 SSI is the only way that I live.
Free will and this is how I did .
May God forgive but life just stays bad.