IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND

AT SIXTEEN YEARS OLD
I WAS LIKE ANY OTHER TEEN
TRING TO DO WELL IN SCHOOL
AND TO KEEP MY ROOM REAL CLEAN.
I HAD A JOB IN FAST FOOD
I WORKED EVENINGS AND NIGHTS
TRYING TO DO MY HOMEWORK
WITHOUT TURNING ON THE LIGHTS.
I HAD A BOYFRIEND
A FEW YEARS OLDER THAN ME
HE'D PICK ME UP FROM WORK AT NIGHT
NEXT DAY I'DE BE THERE AT THREE.
WE'D GO OUT ON DAYS OFF,
TO THE MOVIES OR THE PARK
OR JUST SIT ON MY PORCH
AND TALK QUIETLY IN THE DARK.
AND THEN ONE NIGHT
HE PICKED ME UP FROM WORK
HE ACTED REALLY STRANGE
HE ACTED LIKE A JERK.
I TOLD HIM,"TAKE ME HOME!
I DON'T WANT TO FIGHT"
BUT HE DROVE ME SOMEWHERE ELSE
MY HOUSE WAS FAR FROM SIGHT.
HE PULLED THE CAR OVER
IN THE PARKING LOT OF A BAR
AS HE PULLED ME CLOSE TO HIM
AND LOCKED THE DOORS OF THE CAR.
"LET ME GO!" I TOLD HIM
"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?
I WON'T TELL ANYONE WHAT YOU'VE DONE
PLEASE JUST LET ME BE
BUT THE SILENCE WAS DEAFENING
MY HEART BEGAN TO RACE
AS I FELT THE FIRST SLAP
GO ACROSS MY FACE.
HE HELD ME DOWN AGAINST MY WILL
DO I REALLY HAVE TO GO ON?
AFTER THE NIGHTMARE WAS OVER
MY VIRGINITY WAS GONE.
NOW THE BIBLE SAYS,"LOVE THY ENEMIES
AND TURN THE OTHER CHEEK"
THAT MIGHT  WORK FOR THE STRONG
BUT WHAT ABOUT THE WEAK?
AND ALTHOUGH THIS HAPPENED SO MANY YEARS AGO
THE MEMORY STAYS FRESH IN MY MIND
FORGIVENESS IS SOMEWHERE IN MY HEART
IT'S JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO KIND.