What price my heart?

I never wanted to look too closely,
I didn't want to see the cracks in the facade,
tears in the Superman cape.

I wanted to worship you!
I needed to hold you up as something true and fine and perfect.
I excused your many errors,
I forgave your occasional selfishness.

I concentrated on the smooth glossiness of your exterior and would not look any deeper.
No one could sully you to me,
Those who tried caught the full measure of my ferocious defense.

We were members of a mutual admiration society,
both dedicated to whatever made you happy.
Then one day, in a casual, off-handed way, you eviscerated me.
You hadn't given it much thought; Hadn't really intended to do it...

But my wants and your wants came to a fork in the road, so you (as usual) chose your wants.
Decision made; My heart was collateral damage.

"Sorry you're upset - you know I wouldn't hurt you for anything in the world"....
But you did!
You had a choice to make! You chose to do something that would break my heart and cause me pain!
You did it.... You did.....

I cannot speak to you now;
I do not care to see you now...

My tears have cleansed my eyes and I now see all the cracks in your edifice.
Your cape is dull and ragged....
My ears are aching from the deafening sounds of pillars and pedestals crashing to the ground, innocence shattering, and my own heart breaking.

Things will never be the same between us.
You've just lost your biggest fan.
How tragic for both of us.
How utterly, unspeakably tragic.