I'm so tired of all the guilt and pain I feel
Is this really my life, Is this even real?
I don't know how my life got this bad
One day I was with my kids the next I was sending them to live with dad
I gave up everything to dance with the devil
And hes got me dancing on a whole nother level
When I thought things were bad, they got even worse
Now I'm walking around with needles in my purse
I have scars on my arms and my hands
Why didn't anyone warn me this wasn't what I planned
I wish I could go back and change my decision
My only hope now is one day to be forgiven
I want my kids to know I'm sorry for being so irresponsible
And I will make it up to them if that's even possible
And to my kids dad I apologize for all I put you through
I know you wanted to fix me but there was nothing you could do
But I am learning as I go but it comes with so much shame
It was my fault and no one else I should blame
All I can do now is take one day at a time
This is gonna be one hell of a mountain to climb