you​ ​manipulated​ ​me​ ​for​ ​years,​ ​starting​ ​when​ ​i​ ​was​ ​barely​eighteen
you​ ​had​ ​everyone​ ​around​ ​us​ ​fooled​ ​thinking​ ​you​ ​treated​ ​me​ ​like​ ​a​ ​queen
but​ ​behind​ ​closed​ ​doors​ ​hid​ ​the​ ​lies​ ​and​ ​revealed​ ​the​ ​truth
 you​ ​called​ ​it​ ​love​ ​but​ ​I​ ​called​ ​it​ ​abuse
you​ ​slowly​ ​broke​ ​my​ ​spirit, the​ ​fire​ ​in​ ​my​ ​eyes​ ​quickly​ ​died 
when family would ask how i was i always lied
 never​ ​wanting​ ​to​ ​say​ ​the​ ​wrong​ ​words so​ ​i​ ​would​ ​stay​ ​silent
walking​ ​​​on​ ​eggshells​ ​praying​ ​for​ ​no​ ​violence
 just​ ​when​ ​i​ ​thought​ ​things​ ​couldnt​ ​get​ ​worse Something​ ​good​ ​finally​ ​came
​I​ ​brought​ ​a​ ​miracle​ ​onto​ ​this​ ​earth, Jayden would be his name
 i​ ​vowed​ ​to​ ​God​ ​i​ ​would​ ​love​ ​him​ ​and​ ​always​ ​protect​ ​him 
never​ ​letting​ ​him​ ​feel​ ​the​ ​hate​ ​i​ ​felt​ ​within
when​ ​he​ ​was​ ​born​ ​so​ ​sick​ ​and​ ​fragile​ ​it​ ​was​ ​me​ ​you​ ​blamed
 you​ ​had​ ​me​ ​convinced​ ​it​ ​was​ ​my​ ​fault​ ​and​ ​for​ ​years​ ​I​ ​felt​ ​ashamed
the​ ​hate​ ​in​ ​my​ ​heart​ ​became​ ​darker​ ​and​ ​darker
living​ ​everyday​ ​became​ ​harder​ ​and​ ​harder
But​ ​that's​ ​what​ ​you​ ​wanted​ ​was​ ​for​ ​me​ ​to​ ​hate​ ​too
You​ ​wanted​ ​me​ ​to​ ​be​ ​just​ ​as​ ​miserable​ ​as​ ​you
 I​ ​lived​ ​for​ ​years​ ​trying​ ​to​ ​make​ ​you​ ​happy​ ​and​ ​proud
And​ ​trying​ ​to​ ​keep​ ​that​ ​promise​ ​to​ ​God​ ​that​ ​I​ ​vowed
 I​ ​tried​ ​my​ ​best​ ​to​ ​shield​ ​our​ ​baby​ ​boy​ ​from​ ​all​ ​the​ ​hate
But​ ​he​ ​has​ ​seen​ ​more​ ​than​ ​any​ ​child​ ​should​ ​so​ ​for​ ​him​ ​it​ ​was​ ​too​ ​late
 But​ ​you​ ​lost​ ​at​ ​your​ ​own​ ​game​ ​because​ ​I​ ​finally​ ​opened​ ​my​ ​eyes I​ ​seen​ ​you​ ​for​ ​who​ ​you​ ​truly​ ​were​ ​and​ ​seen​ ​threw​ ​all​ ​your​ ​lies
I​ ​finally​ ​understood​ ​I​ ​would​ ​never​ ​ever​ ​please​ ​you
Because​ ​you​ ​hate​ ​yourself​ ​so​ ​much​ ​you​ ​had​ ​to​ ​make​ ​me​ ​hate​ ​myself​ ​too
But​ ​I​ ​finally​ ​awoke​ ​from​ ​that​ ​nightmare 
I​ ​will​ ​always​ ​use​ ​this​ ​as​ ​a​ ​life​ ​lesson​ ​to​ ​be​ ​aware
 Be​ ​ware​ ​of​ ​the​ ​people​ ​I​ ​let​ ​into​ ​my​ ​life
Always​ ​looking​ ​over​ ​my​ ​shoulder​ ​waiting​ ​for​ ​that​ ​knife
 And​ ​as​ ​for​ ​you​ ​I​ ​could​ ​careless​ ​whether​ ​you​ ​live​ ​or​ ​die
 But​ ​I​ ​do​ ​hope​ ​when​ ​your​ ​in​ ​hell​ ​you​ ​pay​ ​for​ ​every​ ​lie
I​ ​have​ ​said​ ​all​ ​I​ ​need​ ​to​ ​say​ ​with​ ​these​ ​words​ ​I​ ​have​ ​spoken
I​ ​will​ ​forever​ ​remember​ ​your​ ​the​ ​reason​ ​why​ ​I​ ​am​ ​broken