The Wall

This wall had first began going up when i was 16
Thats when i started realizing that people can be so cruel and mean
Before then i was naieve about what the world was all about
What my peers motives against me i would probably never find out
This wall was built around me to keep my heart safe from harm
To forever keep myself away from a vengeful arm
The wall finally broke down when i asked her to the Prom
She said yes and i was glorified and didnt think anything was wrong
The wall went back up when she told me she couldnt go
It was only a minor rejection what the real pain is i would know
You told me you didnt like having boyfriends the first time i asked you out
Why you didnt tell me the truth and why you let me down easy i can never figure out
I would have just hung myself or shot myself anyway because i wanted you
You were my every dream come true
The wall continued to get higher when my parents marriage failed
I can still recall how i had weeped and how i had wailed
The wall was built higher when i realized what my father was
He was a dictator and an intimidator and had done it just because
As i go through life i try to find ways to break down my wall
I put up this wall because the end of my life i did not want to see fall
The wall had protected me when i realized she had married another man
She had never even given me the time of day nor even given a damn
Life is about the walls that we build around us through the expieriences that we see
Its about the things that we do  amd tje way we set our hearts free
The Wall continues to go up in my every day life
Its a coping mechinisim i use to be with my pain and when success happens to survive and strife
The wall is very high now and few will ever be let in
Thats what i get then again for believing i can live a normal life and be able to swim