The Addiction Journey

The haziness here within my life,
     the hurt, the fear, the pain, the strife
It leaves me cold within my heart
     The memories tear my soul apart

I came into this life so pure
     No boundaries set, my future sure
But as the days turned into nights,
     My past grew dark and full of flights

Defects of character, in my mind to creep
     They cause me tears and lack of sleep
What once looked bright, it turned so dark
     It changed my thoughts, it left a mark

Of lonliness, of thoughts not mine
     My reflection blurred, it lost its shine
My soul its gone, the blackness deep
     The pain so strong, my tears to weep

I found the place where teeth are gnashed
     Unquenchable fire, it burns like gas
It seems that I have found my end
     My hopes are dashed, they will not mend

So I call on God just one more time
    Is he not there? Or just sublime?
Oh God, I need your saving grace
    To help me from this dark, cold place

This addiction tears my soul apart
     Please renew my mind and change my heart
I'll do whatever it will take
     To save my soul and change my fate

My will I'll align with yours each day
     I'll fight the fight, In this seat I'll stay.
I'll climb these steps you laid for me
     Just change me God! It is my plea

Recovery's here for all in need
     Just work the steps and plant the seed
Of light and life, Im here to stay
     A new freedom to find based upon each day.

                      ______Steve Bolton 2010