I awake each morning with pain in my mind , body , and heart
So many things I can not control, where do I even start
How can I convey a lifetime of hurt, torment, and shame
Its like fitting the bible on a piece of rice, a single grain
Do not get me wrong, I know I certainly do not suffer alone
Everyone has struggles and sins for which to atone
Even when I am alone I find myself silently screaming
Ripping, tearing through the pain, hoping for healing
Guilt eats me alive from the inside out
Killing me daily without any doubt
I stumble towards the future as I trip over the past
Beating myself up so often, I need a full body cast
I am reaping  the horrors of the many terrors I did sow
Please tell me how to silence the screams, I need to know
How long before all the good I have been doing
Changes what I am reaping, so I can keep going
I have to grapple every single day
with the very thoughts that caused me to go astray
I pray that one day soon the screams will just cease
So that I may live out the rest of my days with some kind of peace