Pain

Cause you've broken my wings and I fall to the ground, try to help me up but there's no one around.
I writhe when I'm taken by this eternal pain, you've stunted my healing, never will fly again.
So I drag on the ground, until finally I crawl, but you've crippled my legs never will walk at all.
You told me you needed me, made me feel good inside, now you said you've forgotten, now my heart it has died.

So I finally give up, don't know what to say, can't live on my own, just can't live everyday.
I see you with him, it's all in my face, my time that I spent on you it's all just a waste.
Don't know how to kick this, a habit like the need to smoke. Only difference is, this habits a joke.
You don't feel the same way, one day you did don't know why, the feelings that you had for me you forgot, said goodbye.

My touch you took from me, without living glee, all because you got tired from the asking of me.
Stuck in this circle, that makes me ask why. Why you would sleep with me and not say goodbye.
Why do you sleep with someone when you say you're tired, of them asking you for sex, when you know you're desired.
I don't understand it, but I really do care, why you make my love for you, present so unfair.

I wish I was him, that boy the young J, then you'd be so in love, would give your life away.
I wouldn't abuse it, hold close to my heart, when we're together and when we're apart.
But it doesn't matter how hard I cry, you'll never take this love, never take my.
My heart is my own, til the end of time, my heart you will not take and I'll never be fine.

I wish I was them, Scott, Derek, Chan, L and J just to be in your heart if for only a day.
To feel the heat of your love, the rays of your sun, if only for a day, to feel like your one.
Four years of talking, four months of pain, the time that I live here, nothing to gain.
Noting will matter when it comes to the end, no matter how I fall apart, only a friend.
More I want but this love I just can't save it, in the end I'm nothing more than not good enough David.