You ask me why I turned my back

And hardened up my heart,

Well, let me go back several years

To where the pain would start.

I was just a little girl

sitting on my grandma's knee,

She'd tell me little stories

And said someday you'll see.

She'd tell me life's not easy

no matter what path you take,

But in your life you'll learn my dear

It's the decisions that you make.

I raised you to believe in God

And sing his words of peace,

And if you trust within his words

His love will never cease.

Just ask for help and he'll be there

To guide you along the way,

But when I asked for grandma's life

He decided to take her away.

My life is only hardened

By the lies been told to me,

A wall's around a beaten heart

I know that you can't see.

So yes I hide despair and pain

And bury it deep inside,

For me it's just the safest way

When I need to run and hide.