Many days spent feeling the neglect of the one you love so greatly, yet you can't escape the spell she's cast upon you. You wonder and think, contemplate and gather everything that matters over everything that scatters. Do you stay or go? Is she friend or foe? They say love is pain but it's driving me insane, thoughts of quiting ran through my veins once or twice, hoping that I might retrieve what I'm seeking for. More and more I wait patiently for the forth coming of my sanity because beneath me all I see is misery. Everyday I climb the same mountains of questions, asking myself am I strong enough to free my pain. Many have told me to take another path, to free my pain by flying away to the end of the earth. If I fly away now I may be able to escape, I might be able to set myself free but will that really allow me to be me and who I wanna be? I love to love and be loved back, will I find the seeker who is seeking the same as I? We all have things in our lives that anchor us down, but we all have the power to free our pain. I still hurt from the love I've shared and I dare to try something new, something safe, because scared to open my valve of love again to one that does not see love the same way as I. Therefore I will spy for the eye of one who recognizes what I am about,the one who will share everything with me as we grow together as one, the one who can free my pain.