I jumped awake from my dream last night,
I cried and looked around.
But, then realizing where I was,
I am safe, I laid back down.
Tears soaked my pillow and my face,
As I tried to fall back asleep
But memories racing through my head,
Made it impossible to count any sheep.
Deep in my thoughts I was with him again,
What he did to me, fresh in my mind
On top of me, punching me, holding me down,
How could he have been so unkind?
Against the wall now, against the fridge,
Against the stove how that hurt!
Holding a knife, then he sinks it in me,
Blood all over my favorite shirt.
Tears down my face, I cry and I plead,
“Please don’t! No, please, don’t! I love you!”
He drops to his knees, puts his arms around me,
“I’m sorry, I thought we were through!
I can’t live without you, you are my world,
If you left, I don’t know what I’d do!
Forgive me, I’ll change, never hurt you again!”
But he did, always would, that I knew.
I loved him so much but was afraid of him still,
And love is not living in fear.
I found a shelter and got a divorce,
He wanted me dead, but I’m here.
I open my eyes, I’m safe in my room,
but my past will always haunt me.
Then, I close my eyes, and I drift off to sleep,
He’s gone now, and I can be free.